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Thursday, January 22, 2009 ; day of reckoning

thanks for the wake up call.thanks for the rude reminder.for the effort.for the slacking.for the vicious cycle.for the convincing.for him to lose his purpose all over again.and for him to psyche himself.the umpteenth time.reality smashes back in,and baffled would be an understatement to express his frustrated feelings.

he did not really realize the gravity of his mistakes.but finally when he does.im afraid it might be beyond what salvaging can save.his stubborn,unflagging innate nature rebels audaciously against the correct ways of the world.his school.his social values unturned by a moment of imprudence.while the jolly good people mull over,ever so seriously the pressing responsibilities shouldered upon them.he indulges in taking breaks at unnecessary times.akin to a slumbering dragon,he is unperturbed by the harsh results that present themselves to him.he is reluctant to leave his hoard of treasures and gold.even though the outside may be raining meteors.

the roof of the mountain about to break.but he only takes comfort in the immediate present.his naive disregard for the future will invariably bring about his downfall.no matter how comfortable he is.there's no turning back time.it will come.it will come.that moment where he would be utterly lost for words.

wondering why this happened to him.

why it was so unfair.

why he apparently failed to integrate into society.

why?

his own making.

the Lord Almighty.please manifest the absurd consequences of his thought to be innocent decisions to him.when he passes the gates of condemnor.eyes of despise will watch.will stare.and there.he will falter more.blaming his own.until he discovers that life is just a game.where you can take no stops.where you can never backtrack.where decisions affect the outcome.whatsoever they may be.and finally.its game over for him.

so there he is.still putting to no good use his precious time.and wishes for an alternate reality where 24 hours were equivalent to an hour on earth.how ignorant.how silly.how ludicrous.an embarrassment to his level of age.he knows.but never decides to start acting.happily ever afters don't exist in real life young one.you must know that.

his visions have revealed to him a fate where he is at the helm.but what an incompetent captain he is.such a wasteful life.好汉不提当年勇,but when that day comes.he won't have a sliver of achievements to boast about.don't you agree he should be shot?

amidst the bountiful pieces of advice and messages he tells himself.they do not carry enough weight.easily defeated by the inherently weak purpose and discipline he has always held dearly.
they would only remain in but a vestige of his hateful memory.

till then.....

be forewarned.

and snap out of your dazed spell.

right this moment.

and many good things will present themselves clandestinely to your embrace.

jixian was bored at 8:46 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009 ; for your relaxation only

yesterday's band practice was better than i expected.i thought miss sia was gonna go through machu picchu and overture again.but luckily she did not and we went back to a perennial favourite : Big Band Showcase.it was enjoyable.i guess the choice of songs does have an effect on whether you will like the practice or not.if i were subjected to 3 hours of practicing machu picchu i would feel pretty bored.but big band aint so bad.its fun (:

recently ive been on the mad rush for deep house songs.i can't explain why i like them so
much.its this ethereal,ambient feeling they give me.i can just drift away.characteristic 7th chords and nice progressions.in tandem with that downtempo beat.it just makes you wanna lie down and chill out.just play it and you'll find out why.

walking around at midnight on the streets of east coast.bestows a sophisticated feeling.the cool breeze weaves through your hair.round your neck.the musty smell of the sea.the occasionally disturbed calm of the streets.a pristine post-apocalyptic world.just walking around makes you ponder : "how does the night seem so beautiful?" it is then you can appreciate the wonder which is earth.the ultimate relaxation.all the more if you didn't have to walk alone.

V3D16T08 Move For Me (DJ Konabuzz Mix Mash) - Kaskade & Deadmau5

jixian was bored at 9:45 AM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ; advanced life directive

to my curiosity.my first day at school didn't make me feel tired at all.but the subsequent days.you could say they started to seep the energy out of me.

its only the third day now.first of the many more weeks to come.but interestingly enough JC2 has gotten my momentum going.the equation being good results = hardwork X enjoyment.its always pertinent to have what my tuition teacher says in mind : "you should start working and getting that momentum.once you have it you will like everything you do".that's kinda true.given a person who had to start giving tuition at a young age because of certain circumstances.he has come a long way to having his own tuition centre now.

amidst my strong disagreement.i would have to settle for a lousy score for chem test tomorrow.unless i can muster some time to study effectively the topics of J1 this night.yes.the directive will have to hold.for me to get some kind of achievement which has eluded my evil clutches since the beginning of time.

after miss ong's speech today,i begin to doubt my aptitude for enduring long hours of practice.i can't take the mental side of it.i don't mind practicing.but committing myself solely to the 2 pieces for SYF will melt my brain.5 hours of combined practice on Overture 2 and Machu Picchu.how? i ask myself.i pray for a miracle.

sleeping on the bus is quite relaxing.it gives you the momentary rest you need in the middle of the day to kickstart your brain for the night.most of us reach home wasted and sleepy.but a short nap on the bus really helps to subside all those feelings.though.of course.what a loser was i to avoid sleeping last time because i thought i would look bad to other people.who cares.

oh well.im really looking forward to see what serendipitous discoveries and surprises i might find when the new J1 batch comes in.till then.i need to look out for opportunities to be more sociable and less grave looking.

jixian was bored at 8:48 PM

Tuesday, January 6, 2009 ; Avast ye scurvy deckswabbers!

as the new year starts.so does many more things demand from me.here are more resolutions.

1.Start taking tuition seriously.
2.Practice on your strokes and control,must improve overall drumming creativity (:
3.Start taking bass lessons.
4.Get a gig in school!
5.Play Overture 2 and Machu Picchu almost perfectly!
6.Pay attention in school.

it shall be tough for no. 6.as the vicious cycle greets me once again.lethargy is public enemy number 1.behold.me shall be armed with things to subside this insidious feeling.

okay this gotta start with something interesting.perc outing it shall be.

so last last sunday we had to get to phyllis's house for this percussion outing thing.which was the first where almost everyone were out together doing fun things.

im sorry i was late.because weng,jiayun,regina and jeanette were already there but they couldn't go swim cause weng vehemently insisted(in his childish manner of course) that i reach first before they could go.well in the end.guess what.after i reached we played Guitar Hero : Aerosmith and still not swimming yet.until jason came.after everyone had a chance on the wireless guitar control thingy.we finally changed.

hmm.by this time i should've started to develop a phobia for swimming.i have not touched a pool since maybe 5 years ago.but yeah.i have to go.take that step.

swimming is.essentially.more.tiring.than.running.good exercise for me who has not worked out in ages.so we played monkey in the pool with the rubber ball and poked each other with sponge floats.then at least we swam.its a glad thing that i didnt manage to sink like a concrete slab.

then we exchanged presents! yay! but sorry to jiayun cause i took her name and she took mine.eww.i didn't prepare a nice present.but for next time i promise to get something proper and wrap it up with a big ribbon (:

Guitar Hero is a nice invention.though i've had some experience playing on the bass guitar.left hand fingers should have strengthened by now.but i just simply can't get used to the up and down picking of the guitar controller.well.too bad im not a guitarist and i use my fingers to pluck the bass.but nevertheless its filled with nice songs from aerosmith and the epic length of those songs are enough to make you kinda bored after a while.

phyllis's mom was nice enough to make us food after we swam.now i understand why Michael Phelps eats up to 12,000 calories a day.swimming REALLY makes you starved.then we watched ''The Dark Knight'' which made everyone bored and sleepy.then finally we went back to play guitar hero and other games to kill the time.and we repeatedly stabbed it so it will not recover again.hohoho....

just as people were getting disoriented with the happenings now.some of the party decided to go down and play cards while some just messed around with the Xbox 360.havent seen cheesheng so happy before.like a boisterous little boy getting christmas presents for the first time.the joy.the excitement.haha (:

im too lazy to decipher the next bit for you.well when the pack came back we just sat and played cards after regina and jeanette went home.sadly after 2 tries of trying to convince my mom to let me stay over,i still miserably took bus 12 home.but i know some very unglam photos were taken by an evil mastermind during that night.oh well.luckily i wasn't there.

THERE! the last post for now.until i have more insipid things to say about my life.

jixian was bored at 2:31 PM